It’s an easy enough trap to fall into.
I got going on a path that flooded me with excitement.
I started using tools that were fun and seemed magical and OHMYGOD worked. THEY WORKED.
And then I wanted to see what more I could do.
It’s not about doing more.
The doing will come.
It’s about BEING MORE OF WHO I ALREADY AM.
That’s what the tools brought out.
That’s what flowed through.
And when I decided I had to “do” more, I fell short.
And fell short again.
And started wondering why.
And started analyzing myself.
And over-analyzing myself.
Which, of course, kept that downward spiral of momentum going strong.
I stopped meditating.
I stopped journaling.
I stopped pre-paving.
Now I’m not a fan of “always” and “never” thinking.
I mean, I can do the black-and-white, all-or-nothing cognitive distortion positing like no one’s business.
Ultimately, though, that thinking is flawed.
Except with this:
It’s never about becoming someone you aren’t.
It’s always about becoming more of who you already are, allowing more of yourself to flow through.
I forgot that for a moment (or several months).
The tools don’t change you.
They break away at all that you aren’t, all the walls, the wounds, the bullshit that has been built up, and they allow the real you to burn brightly through.
So I say: BURN BABY BURN.
P.S. Retreat spots are still available. Come learn the tools that work best for you and allow more of your true self to burn through.